Clashing with an empath/me and why...

I found this interesting and helpful article. It helped me to understand better,
why some people do not like me, when usually people like me right away!
(Quite common for empaths to be liked,
due to their understanding, caring and non-judgemental personality.)

I am an empath and here's some more info about that:

http://mysticalraven.com/spirituality/12297/the-mirror-effect-of-the-empath-and-why-some-people-instantly-dislike-you

Reflecting Back

"Because being around an Empath can bring up anything buried, it may cause a strong loathing to develop in others. However, what those who experience this ‘loathing’ don’t realize is the intense dislike they have, towards the Empath, is simply a reflection of their shadow-side. Anything hidden becomes seen within the ‘Mirror of the Empath’."


I have noticed this... :'D Thus many "removals" of "friends",
they can't face them selves and I can't face inauthenticity...





The Mirror Effect

"Because an Empath picks up on other people’s emotions, hidden behaviours and true personality traits, they can take them on and thus project them back out to their rightful owner. They can wear other people’s truth like the mask they hide behind; even if they are unaware they are doing it."


I am very self-aware... I have noticed I do this and it makes me anxious, I don't want people to think I am fake, I just need to learn how not to do it I guess...



Your Stillness is Wrongly Interpreted

"Because at times, you may appear aloof some may consider this to be superior behaviour. Wrongly assuming you believe you are in some way above them.

Normally, when an Empath acts in an aloof or distant way, it is because they are on overload.

When having taken on too much stimuli from their surroundings and are in serious need of recharging, the Empath wants nothing more than to be invisible to others."


Yes! I "retrieve" sometimes and some think I am not ok, or disliking them, but it is simply because I am gathering my energy and dealing with all feelings and thoughts, gathered from usually too many people at once...

"And when heading towards a fatigue meltdown, the last thing an Empath can deal with is someone offloading their troubles, like so many like to do. Even polite conversation is too much. This is often interpreted as a rejection or an insult.

Because others don’t feel what an Empath feels, it is difficult for them to understand why they have to withdraw the way they do."

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♥ ~ Love, Ninja

Computer addiction/gaming

These days it is normal to have a computer and stuff.
For me it was cool when the first computers came around
and I have had a computer in my life ever since!
(Now I have 2, a table pc/desktop(?) and a laptop. Mostly use the table PC)
I'm not as much of a nerd as I want to be though.. Still got stuff to learn! :P

I have an addiction to computers, I spend most of my time sitting around the computer,
doing what ever. Recently (a year-two ago) I started playing games.
Mostly CS:GO (Counter Strike: Global Offensive) and HotS (Heroes of the Storm)

So um, playing games is nice! Have taught me a lot about logic and using it more often.
Which helps me a lot, being a overthinking, stressing person.

I've noticed I mostly like team-games. Playing alone is not as fun,
though having team mates who don't know how to play as a team are annoying!
(Play games that are not team based! lol) Haha.
(Everyone is a noob at first!) I'm not a pro gamer, but it is fun and I learn more all the time.

I have found a lot of new friend via gaming, that is super cool too!
Especially since I've had trouble leaving my flat/computer.
It actually does not help me, to not be so much on the computer,
but I use my "computer time" more beneficial now..
Gaming is not the problem! It is the f-ing compute! :D

But um, it is important to notice a computer/internet addiction..
I believe many have it without realizing, it took me a while to notice too.
Thought I just didn't have anything better to do and that's why I'm on the computer so much.
But I actually leave a lot of stuff un-done, because of getting stuck on the computer.
(Which is pretty normal too, even for people who don't have the addiction..)

Haven't really even tried stuff to keep me off of the computer yet,
but I am going out more! (Thus, less pc time, but it's always pc time when at home!)
When I go out, I keep away from my phone or any possible computers
and consentrate on the people around me (looking at their phones non-stop, lol).
You got any tips on how to stay away from the computer?
"Just do not put it on the first thing in the morning!" Haha
(I will learn my self though, as soon as I start trying.. Got some other priorities right now.)



Hm, what else? I dunno.. Just thought it is good to spread the word a bit/talk about it openly.
Maybe you need to check out the pro's and con's of your "computer-time"? Tsh. :P


~ Ninja ♥

I am a hoarder!

Well so..
I finally got to move to a bigger apartment.
Used to live in a 33m2 tiny little one-room-flat,
now I live in a 59,5m2 two-room-flat. ^^
(More to clean, ugh! Haha.)

The funny thing(!) is that I filled this "huge" flat so easily with all the stuff from my old flat.
(Must be good at Tetris, being able to fit this much stuff in a tiny flat, haha!)
Only got 2 couches more, the only things "new" here.. Oh my!
I really need to look over my stuff and see what I really even need/want.

Well hm.. Dunno what else to say..
My 2 cat's love it here, more room, safer outside..
(without cat stealers, cat torturers and less mites/tick's) :) ♥


(Pic: The biggest tick taken off of my cat. I know..ew. haha)


Um.. Well yeah, the kitchen is newly done,
the construction workers must have used this empty flat as their "break-room", lol.
(No-one lived here at that time)
Because the kitchen/fridge was a bit messy.

I had to put up new wallpapers in 2 rooms (with good help! TY mom, Max and my bro Tomas!)

and move at the same time, was super stressy times. UGH!

Still need to paint my pink entry/hallway white.. (ew, don't like pink walls!)

 

(Pix: "Ripping off" the old wallpaper in living room
and my new wallpaper in the bedroom.)


I think this is enough about that..
Sorry for messy writing and stuff,
havent written stuff in a long time!

~ Ninja ♥

"Special.."

If someone acts special towards you,
don't get fooled, it might just be the way that person is.
But when you know someone and that person
does something he/she doesn't usually do,
then it is special!

And vice versa.. Someone doing something special,
but you not noticing, because it is normal for you..

For example: Me being nice, it's normal, just they way I am,
doesn't make you my crush or anything..

Not saying you shouldn't take a special act as special
or take it for granted, but just don't get fooled!


~ Ninja ♥

Shy

The night begins
and the bets are high.
Take me in your arms
and suddenly I am shy.
I want to give in
there is a lot of reasons why.
But you will just want
what I can not provide.

~ Nina ♥ 

Empty mind..

I've been giving it a lot of thought,
but I can't seem to see it clear.
I'm waiting for a wake up call
to make it all feel real.

~ Nina ♥